The idea of renewal keeps coming up. I see it in blogs, in magazines, in notices and everywhere. I just got back from an amazing vacation in North Carolina and thought about renewal and rejuvenation a lot. On Saturday at 6:30 am, the day we were leaving the cabin, I promptly woke up with a terrible sinus infection that I have been fighting, to no avail since. I called off work today, the idea of making the bed seems to be too much work, and I feel that a week of “renewal” is promptly lost in a wash of Vick’s vapor rub and tissues. Hello Sudafed, I love you. While we were gone, I had to renew my blog domain, noticed I hadn’t blogged in weeks and wondered why I even was? But I couldn’t NOT. So maybe there is some reason to not say good bye to my sporadic attempts at blogging after all. I do want to try to blog more. I have decided that I need to set deadlines for myself outside of to do lists. I need hard deadlines in order to finish my thesis draft, my short story book, and a few other things I am working on. No one will make me successful but me. I have also realized that i need to step back from my social life as well. This includes declining invites and making time for my work over my activity list. Again, no one can do it but me.
Now, I need to scald myself in hot water and hope that my nasal passages decide to work again and that my body decides to feel normal again. SOON.
Also, I need to somehow return some thesis books to the library that are no longer eligible for RENEWAL. So thanks for that reminder universe.