I used to think I wanted to be a pioneer. 
I used to think I wanted to be a gypsy. 
I used to think I wanted to be a socialite.
I used to think I was fucked up. Now I think I ended up just fine.
XX
Thoughts on a Thursday
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Monthly Archives: March 2011
I’ve been thinking, that this is a weird time. it’s like a transitional time almost, one where i feel like everyone is hovering in a weird, out of body place. the earth is not quite alive again, everything is coated in the residue of winter and responsibilty, and here we are, just tangled up in the nets.
Beautiful Monday
SPRING IS HERE. FINALLY. And with spring, comes flowers, sun, and all sorts of pretty things. Living in Cleveland, Spring can truly be ugly at first, so it’s best to find the color and pop where you can, when the gray still lingers. Hopefully, it doesn’t linger too long.
It’s no secret that I am a HUGE fan of Rimmel’s products. So when I was sent the new Moisture Renew Lipgloss to try out I was more than happy to give it a try. I tried Rose Cocoon, which is a soft and dusty pink, with JUST the right amount of sparkle and shine. The pigments are high, and the color is noticeable, without taking over my whole face. I did go on a mini lipgloss revolt for a bit, one too many times of pulling my long hair out of goop on my lips really did it for me, but Rimmel’s Moisture Renew Lipgloss is for sure one of the products that threw me back on the gloss wagon. 
Available in 14 shades, there is absolutely something for everyone and every skin tone. And at under 7 dollars a pop, it’s easy to pick up a few and not even blink. I personally, have at least three glosses in my purse at all times, just in case. Excessive, I know. The great thing about Moisture Renew Lipgloss is that it is just enough color to wear with dramatic eyes or basic every day makeup. I often do dramatic eye for daytime, so this is a great product for me to easily reach for without worrying that I have TOO much going on makeup wise.
The lipgloss is SPF 15, filled with collagen and vitamins like A, C, and E. This combo, makes your lips super smooth and not heavy or sticky. It goes on smooth, the brush is easy to use, and the tube is slender enough to slip into any evening clutch or school bag. 
I love the Moisture Renew Lipsticks, so I am happy to say that the lipgloss really delivers too!
All Rimmel products can be found at major drugstores and retailers nationwide.
Be sure to check out www.RimmelLondon.com for more information and other great products from Rimmel!
xoxo
At the End of the Fight, No One is in Your Corner but You
Often, I think I damn myself by being independent and lately, I damn myself for my happy-go-lucky attitude.
People are quick to assume things roll off my spine with no residue. Quick to assume that things don’t resonate or stay etched in the corner of my brain where shit boils and festers until I cannot possibly stir it over and over anymore.
There is more behind the flippant attitude, the laid back temperament, and the quick smile. And whatever it may be does not like to be hurt and it does not like to be angry. I am done cleaning up others emotional garbage, done being a fucking punching bag, and I am done being everyone’s go to when there is no one there to be a “go to” for me. Maybe I got soft. Maybe I forgot my scene. Maybe I need some rage on repeat. I don’t know. Final message heading into the weekend? Angry Lauren doesn’t come out much, and there is a reason for that. So let’s try to keep it that way. Or else Mr. Jack Daniels may be making an appearance.
Keep calm and carry on and all that jazz, no?
Thoughts on a Thursday
**I’m not into St. Patrick’s day. Never have been. Never will be. Sorry.
**Reading sucks, when it’s a terrible book you HAVE to read. It sucks even more when you have like 5 books you just got from Amazon you are dying to read.
**It makes me sad when a good ole dive bar suddenly becomes populated by frat boys and all the old men that once perched at the bar are gone.
**Chewy sprees are a million times better than regular ones.
**Making plans with friends who are also laid back can sometimes end up being a giant circular conversation of “I don’t care, what do YOU want to do”.
**If something or someone gives you the heebies, get rid of it or them.
**People that talk about their significant other OVER AND OVER and try to find ANY WAY to tell a story about them are usually just trying to convince themselves that they even like the person they are praising.
**We are getting married in 30 days. EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEKKKKK.
Made it to the End
This was a LONG week. I am not sure why office life takes so much out of a person. I just know it does. And I for one will be happy to see an adult beverage placed in my hand when I am finally free. At least this week I FINALLY finished ALL of the wedding shower thank you cards. ALL are done and in the mail. SO glad that is over. WHAT A PAIN. I also discovered this week that FEW things are as awesome as getting packages of free, new makeup in the mail. <3
I’ve had a lot of personal revelations this week about friendship from a wide variety of sources and my own experiences, and it’s interesting to think about. People are crazy and a LOT of them are self-centered or practically useless. You are responsible for YOU. Don’t spend time trying to make others happy or spend hours feeling as if YOU are doing something wrong because someone else is an ASSHOLE. I’m not perfect, I don’t pretend to be, but I try to be a good friend and often, put others before myself. That is an entirely different conversation and can sometimes end up being a bad habit in itself however. Just remember that even if other people are miserable individuals, you don’t have to be one. You will make it. Just as people make it through the work week. You too, can make it through a rough patch or over a road that is strewn with psychic vampires. Just because your good “friend” is trapped in an emotional wasteland that is self-inflicted, it doesn’t mean you have to be. And it is NO reflection of YOU. And remember, there is NOTHING wrong with a bit of good old-fashioned, soul cleansing solitude. On that note, whatever that note may be, have a great weekend everyone.
xoxo
All is Forgotten, Nothing is Lost Review
Head on over to Vera’s blog www.luxuryreading.com and check out my review of All is Forgotten, Nothing is Lost by Lan Samantha Chang
http://luxuryreading.com/allisforgotten/
Thoughts on a Thursday
**Taking a half day and going to the dentist. I HATE THE DENTIST.
**Banana Chips are awesome. Also awesome? That I think I only know how to spell banana because of Gwen Stefani.
**This week went quickly and for that I am way thankful.
**Some potentially exciting stuff on the horizon, positive thoughts.
**It’s nice having WHY we are getting married put into perspective from an outside source, you know, that whole LOVE thing everyone forgets about?
**I have amazing friends.
**I couldn’t get into any book I tried to read for WEEKS. I pick up Post Office by Bukowski and finish it in 2 days.
**There are always those friends, who even if you don’t talk to them for years, they will always be your friends.
**My heart hurts for old friends who lost a very dear friend this week.
**Looking forward to a busy, productive, and fun weekend.
**I should probably do some homework.
**NOTHING beats texts messages from certain friends. I laugh out loud regularly every day.
Hope everyone has a great week!
xx
Misery Called, She Needs Some Company
I will never understand why people prefer others, and surprisingly it’s directed mostly at people they know, to be miserable. I am not saying everyone. I am saying the select few who prefer you to be down and out, depressed, broke, bloody and bruised, and in shambles. For some reason, this is more appealing than being on top of your game. When things fall into place for others, why the disdain? Why not the quick congrats and move along? Is it that painstakingly difficult to make note that someone has shit going RIGHT for them? It must be. Surely these people must have something in their lives they are unhappy with and thus cannot be happy for you. And what is interesting, is that it immediately draws attention to the fact that they are unhappy individuals for whatever reason. I am a firm believer that envy gets you nowhere. There will always be people who have more stuff than you, those that have a better job, or a more exciting existence. But in spite of what they have on the outside, they may be lacking in something you have an ABUNDANCE of inside. Now I am not saying you need to run after people you know throwing rose petals and covering them with gold star stickers every time they reach an achievement or have something awesome happen to them, but maybe it wouldn’t hurt to be happy for them. Just a thought.
Bury Me With It
I haven’t blogged in AGES. I’ve been buried in life, and everytime I look at the clock, it’s hours later than I thought it was. The wedding has consumed so much time, energy, and money but I know it will be all worth it. We have not touched a SINGLE credit card for ANYTHING, and of THAT I am hugely proud. But needless to say, after the party is over, and we are on OUR HONEYMOON, Mike and I will be happy to have our everyday lives back. Since I have last posted, we had our AMAZING cocktail party style bridal shower, pictures to follow, I paid off two credit cards IN FULL which was a MOST amazing feeling, and I had a fantastic birthday party with my amazing friends and family. Again, pictures to follow. My birthday weekend was great and nice and busy and while it is strange to say that I am now 27, it doesn’t bother me. Another jammed week is ahead of me now, I’m trying to make a point in any way possible to cram some creativity in my day. Picked up some Buckowski at the library last night, I have piles of fashion mags to work through, and the weather is breaking, at least this week, so the sun is out. All of those things should help. And also, just like that, here we are at March already. Wow.
Let’s make this week a great one shall we?
xx
